To Blog Or Not To Blog

To blog or not to blog?

I’ve been wrestling with this idea for a long time. Really long.

The problem is I think too much. I wasn’t going to disclose this, but I suffer from a condition that is pretty twisted, called Pretzel Logic. You might be laughing hysterically right now, but I promise you it’s no joke. It’s a real thing.

Pretzel Logic describes a way of thinking that is circular, full of holes, and twists in on itself, just like a pretzel. In other words, it just means faulty reasoning. It’s obviously not life-threatening, but for me it has been chronic and crippling. I am a deep thinker by nature, and when I deep-think my Pretzel Logic kicks into high gear and I jump into muddy holes of doubt and fear. It’s maddening.

Deep-Thinking is a Trap

The thing is, I like thinking. It gives me time to collect all the facts, ponder every angle, and uncover every possibility before I jump into a decision. After all, it’s a wise thing to do, right?

Yet for me, deep-thinking becomes a trap that grips me by the heals and pulls me down. And when I am bound and unable to move, the assault comes hard and fast.

You can’t do this, you’re just not capable. Your thoughts aren’t important, or interesting, or valuable enough. You don’t have anything to say that hasn’t already been said. Your words will be of no help or benefit to anyone. There’s really no need to take up more space in the already saturated blog-o-sphere.

I listened to this bully voice that bombarded me with ridicule and shame all my life. Decades have been stolen from me, my voice stifled, my abilities restrained, my dreams crushed to nothing. How could I have been so unaware, so gullible, so duped into believing this drivel?

I can see now, how blindsided I was, oblivious to the strong delusion coursing through my mind. The Master of Delusion himself exploited my weaknesses with sly and strategic tactics meant only to harm. Does it not say that the devil prowls around like a roaring lion, seeking someone to devour (1 Peter 5:8)? He’s all evil and he’ll stop at nothing to confuse, sabotage, and derail. It’s no wonder that I unwittingly gave him control, allowing my life to be shaped and directed by his destructive lies.

This Isn’t the End of the Story

Thankfully, the devil’s evil schemes have been exposed, and this is not where my story ends!

In every circumstance I faced, God understood my struggle and in His mercy, reached down into my soul speaking words of comfort, and love, and encouragement. One by one, He dismantled the lies and replaced them with truth until my heart believed. Slowly, through the days measured out and set apart for me, the veil of lies began to lift, and I began to see with new eyes.

You are loved. You are a child of God. You have been given unique talents and abilities to use for My Glory. You are completely able to do what I’m asking you to do because I already gave you the ability. And I will give you the strength. I will show you the way. You are not alone in this. Trust me to supply you with everything you need. You are redeemed, loved, a child of God. Your life story is so important because it was designed with a specific purpose in mind, to bring hope, to shine light, to encourage, and uplift, to be a beacon of light towards the path of Freedom.

With these words, these precious words, I now understand my real identity. With these hope-filled, truth-saturated, freedom-ringing words, I am infused with purpose and direction for my life. From now on, this Voice is the only voice that matters.

The Struggle is Real

I share the story of my struggle because the battleground in the mind is intensely fierce and very real—all the waiting, all the thinking, all the wondering, all the tears, all the fretting, countless moments lost, years wasted—I’m shaking my head in disbelief.

Even so, I am reminded that the One who created the universe and everything in it (Acts 17:24), the One who upholds me with the promise that I will not be put to shame in my hope (Psalm 119:116)—He is the One able to restore lost opportunity, recover the stolen years, and help me to redeem wasted time.

Renewed Confidence and Restored Hope

So here I’ve come full circle. To blog or not to blog is no longer a question.

With renewed confidence and restored hope, I’m stepping into the light that He gives, to do what He’s has been patiently, and oh so lovingly nudging me to do.

This is my first blog post ever. Wherever He leads and whatever He has for me, God is at the helm.

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Sherry Costello

My faith In Jesus Christ is the Deep Root that keeps me grounded and the Guiding Light of my life.

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